What to Do

 So I am starting a new chapter in my life.  I am just rambling at this point.  I honestly don't know what I'm going to write about for my first blog entry.  I'm hoping something will come up that is interesting enough for me to publish.

So, at  least I'm starting to figure this out anyway.  I want this to be a kind of visual journal of sorts.  I recently moved to the city, southern Ontario from a smaller northern town where I lived for 38 years so it's been a huge shock to the system.  I mean huge.  I'm not even certain how I came to be here.  It has been a nightmare of a year.  

If it weren't for my little dog Yogie, I don't know what I would do.  She has become my rock, my everything.  I can at least depend on her for consistency.  She needs to go out for bathroom breaks and needs to be fed and is there always for love and affection and endless cuddles.  At times, she is the only contact I will have.  

She has the biggest heart I have seen for such a little dog.  Anyway, I digress.  I came from a little town, had lots of friends, lived in a nice community where we got together quite a bit, enjoyed each other's company for the most part.  The winters were becoming a challenge and I know I would still be there, had I not been what I feel now was scammed.  I can't think of any other way of calling it.  

I had been heartbroken over the loss of a very damaged, broken dog and was searching for another dog and came across a breeder in southern Ontario and went to see their dogs and became attached to this beautiful girl.  I was to wait a year or two before she was to be retired, and in the meantime, I offered to help out with the breeder and became friends with them, or so I thought. 

This "friendship" developed over a year and I travelled down there back and forth, helped them out with their dogs so they could travel and they talked me into moving down to the area.  I had a bad fall and thought about moving closer to family anyway and so thought this might be the best time as I wasn't getting any younger.

Long story short, after lots of pressure and cajoling I get down here and they vanish and I'm in a city where I don't know anyone in a house with terrible problems and a terrible history.  And yes, I did have a house inspection done.  Thankfully, I was able to acquire  Yogie before they dropped me.  She ended up having problems and couldn't be bred anymore.  Thank goodness.  

I learned a lot about myself.  About resiliency, about not beating yourself up, forgiving yourself and trying to forgive others.  It's best not to hold a grudge, it only hurts you in the end.  Rising above an injury and doing no harm is a healthier choice but it's a choice I have to make every day.  When I'm faced with a new issue or challenge, I still struggle and get upset.  But Yogie and looking at what is good puts everything right.

This was my previous view at my old place overlooking the pool and a short walk to the river.